Amy turns three

Even as I am typing this, she is in the midst of annoying me by kicking her toys everywhere. And she is doing it on purpose because she is staring at me with that smug face and announcing to me “Amy is kicking the playground. Amy is kicking the Peppa Pig playground mama.”

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Sleep regression

Since birth, Alistair had been a champion sleeper. He slept easily and for long periods of time. I was constantly amazed by how he started sleeping for 5 to 6 hours straight at night at a very young age.

However.

Since coming to Australia, it has been difficult for him to sleep.

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Fourth Mother’s Day

This year’s my fourth Mother’s Day celebration as a mummy.

The first year was an awkward and sad one, as I had just lost Alexa. I was between wanting to be recognized as a mother and not be recognized as a mother. It was a very confusing and angry moment.

The next year onwards, I had Amy, and this year, I have Alistair too.

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I have become an oxymoron

I first posted this on my Facebook and it seems to have resonated with a lot of people, so I’m posting it here on my blog too!

I want to work, but I want to stay home with my kids.

I want to pursue my dreams, but they are also my dreams.

I want my own life, but they are also my life.

I need time away, but I miss them.

I want someone else to take care of them because I’m exhausted, but I worry all the time and only trust myself to take care of them.

I want them to grow faster so that we can be out of this madness sooner. But I also wish that they would not grow up so fast because this is a precious moment.

I complain about how crazy they make me. But I also go on and on about how adorable they are and how proud I am of them.

I want to scream at them. But I also want to hug and kiss them.

I thank God every day that I have them. But sometimes I wonder what have I gotten myself into.

I feel two is more than I am able to handle. Yet sometimes I kinda want more.

Yep. I have become an oxymoron. And if you relate to the above, you are most likely a mom too.

Happy Mother’s Day!

 

Love,

Natalie

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