I find that my body is a little weaker than before this time round. Some say it’s because I have a toddler to chase after. It could also be because I’m much busier this time. And I definitely do not have sufficient rest.
But I also think it could be due to this being my 3rd pregnancy in 4 years.
After a long day, I would have a sore back. If I move too fast or too much, I would sometimes have pain at my pelvic joints. And I already feel heavy and clumsy at just 25 weeks.
I have been carrying Amy less, though sometimes I pity her. She would constantly ask for mama to carry her, but I would have to explain that I couldn’t, and that someone else would have to carry her.
I also think about how she would soon have to share me with another baby, and how she would be getting less attention, and how she would have to learn to share her toys with another sibling.
People tell me that she will be OK, and that’s what being an elder sis is all about. Still, at times, my heart aches for her that she has to “grow up” so fast. Am I being ridiculous?
I have been getting two particular questions a lot.
Firstly, must I be induced this time round? Can I not wait to go into labour naturally?
Well, to be honest, I do not think I have the emotional capacity to allow myself to wait for natural labour, unless my natural labour happens when I am in my 37th week. I just can’t wait to have baby number three safely in my arms!
Also, I have consulted my doctor and she is of the opinion that I should be induced at 38 weeks, just like how it was done with Amy. With my history, I guess she also does not want to take any risk.
Secondly, how many children would I love to have?
I would love to have another one after baby number three, but I do not know if I would be mentally and emotionally capable of going through another pregnancy. At this moment, again, I just want to have baby number three safely in my arms. Perhaps after a few years, if I feel brave, I might try for another one. But if not, I am also happy with what God has given me so far.
In the mean time, I am still eating like a cow (or a horse… but actually, why do we use these animals as examples? They only eat grass, don’t they?), and I am still craving for sweet stuff all the time.
Baby number three has also been kicking with more strength. We have begun shopping for some of his clothes, especially since, after clearing out all the old baby clothes, I realized that we only have like 2 pieces of clothing for him left!
About three more months to go. Baby number three, mama speak life and health into you. Let’s be strong and do this together!